Stuck

Longing is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but it doesn't take you anywhere..

I must admit that I am a bit stuck in the longing. I have to get out of that and realise that it doesn't take me anywhere. It just gives me heartache and misery and the days just disappear without me doing anything about it.

Sweden is so cold and I know for a fact that it's going to get so much worse. And if I start to think about the weather over in Oz I'm just going to get even more miserable! So nope! Focus darlin' focus!

ROAAAAAR!!!!

Time to find a solution to the problem and get going!

Leaving on a jet plane....

..... don't know when I'll be back again... :(
Going back to Sweden today, bitter sweet but I know I have to do it.
I have to go back to study so I can get a job to sponsor me over here. And I wanted to get rid of the suffering knowing that I have to leave when November comes anyway. So I decided to go back to the Swedish summer and get cracking so that I can get a life over here when I am done with my studying. *fingers crossed*
I will miss people over here to death back in Sweden and I would love to bring them all with me.
The Sutcliffes, Alex, Tessa, Karina, Ginski. I have you guys to thank for my fun times here in Sydney! Thanks a lot and I love you all :) If you ever travel to Sweden, give me a call and I'll take you in :D I'll miss you all so much!
Time to get in the shower now and get going. God my suitcase is heavy, hope it is not too heavy though....

Big kiss!

Bye bye Australia, for now ;)

Things you might want to know, or not!

A wee bit sad today so I am doing this for a while to keep my mind from thinking of it.....


a. Ever been so drunk you blacked out? Yepp

b. Put a body part on fire for amusement?Nope

c. Kept a secret from everyone? I try to be as truthful as possible

d. Wanted to hook up with a friend? Haven't we all?

e. Ever thought an animated character was hot? Well I did have a minor crush on Cogo in Starzinger when I was a kiddo (Spaceketeers is the American name for the show)

f. Had a New Kids on the Block tape? Nope

g. Been on stage? ahhhh yeah :) Singing, acting, just love it!

--------------Favourites-------------

a. Shampoo? VO5-Fructis

b. Soap? Lux

c. Day/Night? I love the sun, so day is my answer. Or even better, sunrise ....

d. Colour? Ocean blue or forest green

e. Summer/Winter? Since I am an ocean and sun lover, Summer ofc!

f. Fave TV series? The big bang theory, Family guy, American dad

g. Fave Food? Asian

h. Fave Advert? I hate adverts :P

i. Fave Movie? Soooooo many.....ummm... Donnie Darko is good, but... I really like the pianist! Oh and the piano! Hannibal... The crow, Pans labyrinth, the cube, taxidriver, gilbert grape... wow that's not just one huh? crap

----------RIGHT NOW----------

a. Wearing? Black pants and a blue cotton top with some black printing on

b. Eating? Hehehe.. Turkisk peppar :D

c. Hair is? Semi wet, had a shower not long ago

d. Drinking? Nothing, but maybe I should have a glass of water.. hmm

e. Thinking about? The same thing I am not supposed to think about cause it just makes me want to cry. I think about Sydney and how I'm going to be able to ever get a sponsorship in this country so I can stay forever.

f. Listening to? The wind chime outside

g. Talking to? No one, Chris is working so I don't want to disturb him :)

--THE LAST 24 Hrs-----------

a. Cried? oh yes... Can't stop...

b. Meet any new friends? not really

c. Cleaned your room? My room, hmmmm don't have a room. I sleep in the Office/sun room. Going to be good to have my own room back very soon though :)

---------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------

a. Yourself? yes, I know I can do so much more then I give myself credit for.

b. Your friends? Ofc, Otherwise they wouldn't be my friends

c. Santa Claus? I would love to believe in him, but sorry, no :(

d. Tooth Fairy? Not any more

e. Destiny/Fate? yes

f. Angels? Does the human ones count?

g. Ghosts? Sometimes

---------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------

a. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope, but I would love to be together with that special someone whom you enjoy being around :)

b. Who have u known the longest of your friends? Don't really keep track of that, I am just thankful to have the really good friends that I have.

c. Who's the shyest? Hard one... Think most of them outgrew that :)

d. Who's the craziest? It's probably me but other then that I would say that Pernilla is quite wacky

e. Who do you go to for advice? If it isn't my X boyfriend Niklas I go to my aunts or brother. Pernilla and Maggie are good ones to confide in too.

f. When do you cry the most? When I stop believing in myself and everything feels hopeless

Back from Bali

What to say what to say... Bali was nice :) But I have to say that I do prefer Australia ;D
I had some nice catching up with Helena and her family! Anna is just too cute :D
Went to the water boom park, some nice restaurants, including one down the beach with super expensive food. I relaxed in the sun, I bought a sarong, saw some really pretty things and some not so pretty things. Ate some good food but I did have some quite crappy food too. The snails were pretty awesome though :D YUMMIE!
I got a tan, went for walks, met nice people, took loads of photos, went on carousels, hurt my foot, drank beer, had some nice laughs, ate chocolate mousse, strolled on Kuta beach, got lost and I liked it :D It was fun and nice but I did want to go back to Sydney in the end :) What to say, I am in love with this city!

I went to the Safari and cuddled with tigers, apes, elephants, camels and I had a fun fun time!

Getting my act together

Bali ;)

So, as you all may know already..... I am going to BALI tomorrow morning :D And the cutest thing is that aunty Sandra is driving me to the airport even though I said I will be fine on the train. She is an angel that one! Today I went up early to do the laundry before I leave. Yay.... hahaha! But it needed to be done :)

The rest of the day I've spent in the city sorting things out. Things like; Number to the airline, money exchange, checked to see if my bankcard works abroad (which it did), checked to see if my SIM card works in Indonesia (it does not), investigated how much it would cost me to make my tattoo (100-120 Aus$), asked if my hotel was on the right side of the island (which it is), Got the paperwork sorted to get my superannuation back in the future, and I also enjoyed a bright and sunny, warm Sydney day :D Beautiful!

So the rest of the evening is going to be dedicated to the art of packing. Some ironing and sewing too. And then tomorrow at 9:55 in the morning I will be on a plane out of here :) Beaches and relaxation! I feel that I am definitely worth it! Now some e-mail answering time and then I need to get cracking :)

Toodels everyone! See you in a week ;D