Pernilla, Me and her uncle drinking at O'connors
It's been a while. I know, that is pretty crappy of me but I have been pretty busy working at O'connors getting my money for the ticket back home. But the thing is... Can I get home again? Looks like getting the second year visa is pretty hard :( And that is making me a bit stressed and of course sad. But I am not giving up! And Clare is there supporting me like always :D You are an angel love! And i so miss you and hope we will see each other soon again :)
So that was the desperate part, now to the pathetic.
Is it pathetic to think of someone all day long, longing for that person and hoping that everything will work out? God knows I would stop thinking about him if I could. And the thing is that it doesn't matter if he knows about it either since we said from the start that we aren't playing games. I don't play games, no need. I am the one I am and hopefully I will find that someone else whom will appreciate it and be a part of the future I am hoping for.
Now I just need to stop thinking that the world stops turning when I am not around and that everything is going to be the way I left it. But what would we be if we knew we were getting what we wanted all the time? I think we live on the hope of it turning out the way we want it to be. So yeah, I am not going to lie, I hope everything is going to turn out the way I want it when I get back but I am not going to be totally devastated if it don't.
I've been surprised before of what my life have been throwing at me. So hopefully another super cute, nice and wonderful guy will make me feel safe and secure again soon...
Me enjoying a warm autumn day, and me getting ready for a night out
Me and the girls taking pictures in the toilet xD
