...For the first time in a very long time. Now this separation thing hit me and I realised that I am actually here, I am going to be here for a long time and I do miss people back in Sweden. I miss doing the crossword puzzle with my aunt and grandmother the most. Quite a silly thing maybe but those are the ones I met most frequently, so no wonder I miss them.
I think it all hit me cause of the nervousness about the new job at Marcus Evans. This is such a serious thing for me and life changing. So what if I break down again, like I've done before when I've started on something challenging? What if this wasn't the right decision at all? Then what?
Wow, being alone sure isn't healthy when you go in to these kind of self destructive thoughts. I just felt so lonely even though I am surrounded with wonderful people all the time over here.
Better just go to bed and try not to think about it too much!
Tomorrow is a new day and we are meeting up at the park to say bye bye to Lizzie. Stupid Lizzie for leaving, I like that girl! :D
Nighty night people!
