I cried today...

...For the first time in a very long time. Now this separation thing hit me and I realised that I am actually here, I am going to be here for a long time and I do miss people back in Sweden. I miss doing the crossword puzzle with my aunt and grandmother the most. Quite a silly thing maybe but those are the ones I met most frequently, so no wonder I miss them.

I think it all hit me cause of the nervousness about the new job at Marcus Evans. This is such a serious thing for me and life changing. So what if I break down again, like I've done before when I've started on something challenging? What if this wasn't the right decision at all? Then what?

Wow, being alone sure isn't healthy when you go in to these kind of self destructive thoughts. I just felt so lonely even though I am surrounded with wonderful people all the time over here.

Better just go to bed and try not to think about it too much!
Tomorrow is a new day and we are meeting up at the park to say bye bye to Lizzie. Stupid Lizzie for leaving, I like that girl! :D

Nighty night people!

I landed myself a job :D

Yepp! At Marcus Evans. My first real job really, with a potential to make big money and a potential sponsorship ;) Me likey loooong time! So I am starting on Wednesday next week :) I'll have a nice long weekend due to Australia day and then get to work! Earn some money and feel my brain growing! Sweet!

Yesterday Alex called me and wanted me to join her to do this theatrical dance session. So I was expecting it to be some really weird dancing! We got there and Alex paid my ticket since she wanted me to join her (CUTIE!). We came in a couple of minutes late so the stretching had started already. It looked good so we joined it! Then all hell broke loose and me and Alex just died from laughter! The dude leading the class was the smallest but biggest gay person I've ever met! hahaha! Jazz hands! Scooping, tango and hysterical twirls! hahahahahaha! Haven't been laughing like this in a long time xD But as I said to Alex, we were too good for that dance class, that's why we fucked up so bad! ;D It was funny and today I am soar in my belly from all of the good laughs :D Thanks again love for the experience. God knows what kind of class we will attend next time ;)

I had some nice couple of hours on Coogee beach! Was lying around just smiling, being happy and excited about life again! No more anti-depressants and I feel so good :D Think I did a pretty good job with the sunscreen too!

Tomorrow the Glebe market is on so me, Clare and Pete is going there to check it out! I so need a pencil skirt for work and some nice blouses! And a pair of pumps! Don't really have any working woman clothes :) And I do need a bead spread, I kind of miss mine from home ;D
would be swell to find an easel or something. I need to get painting again, miss it :)

Now me and Clare is having a calm evening at home. I am drinking a glass of "goon" ad we are in front of our computers listening to music :) sweet!

Wow.. Busy busy :)

Was awake for a long time last night and I woke up around 7 this morning. All because I am so nervous on my follow up on Marcus Evans! I've been doing research, written down what to say (over and over again), been reading the information (until I had a brain meltdown) etc.
Hopefully I will get it somewhat right! Hahaha! As long as I don't totally freeze up I should be fine! And being nervous is just a way of showing that you actually do care :)

So what else is new... I have three other job interviews to go to over a period of two days. One place called Zest (close to central station), one called AIDA (north Sydney) and one on Pumpkin patch (kids clothing store in Bondi junction). And I am not at all nervous about the one in Bondi since that is a store and not B2B based. I am better in person ;D

Other then that I just keep on looking for a job and I am looking forward to having a house warming either this weekend or the next :) Clare is home again and now we can finally be flat mates for real :D

Oh my I am off for a shower. I am only going to call Duncan at Marcus Evans but I still want to look somewhat good to boost my confidence ;D

Wish me luck people! oh my god.... Just 2 hours and 15 minutes left :-S

Glebe

So I am finally in Glebe in my own room and I am starting to feel like I actually belong here! :) Now I am just super excited about Clare getting back home tomorrow so we can hang out a bit!
And I have to admit that I am getting a bit terrified over the job interview at Marcus Evans tomorrow :O I know nothing about selling over the phone! And god do I hate interviews! Guess he must have liked me any ways since he woke me up Friday and I was just rambling on half asleep half awake. Hopefully I will get that job so I can get some money! Darn it I need money! Happy that I will get another salary from O'connor's the 25:th though. *peeeeeeeeeeew* Miss economical will survive this, fuck yeah! Now give me a job for gods sake :D hihi!

Had some nice chats with, Niklas, Therese and mum over Skype yesterday. And now I am looking forward to speak with dad at 10 this evening ( 12 midday Swedish time)

Will put some pictures up on the room and such as soon as I can find the recharge cable to my phone xD

Now I am going back to my studies about Marcus Evans! oh yeah...

Wa wa wiii wa!

Tomorrow I move in with Clare! :D All excited! Alex is being a doll, driving me over with my shit! sweet as! Now it is time for bed since it is 1:30 in the middle of the night :)
Have some serious job hunting to do when I get there so I have to look fresh and perky ;D