My tarot card of the day ;D

"The Eight of Wands
Stability has been regained and it is time to move forward with renewed interest and passion. You are almost at the end, do not lose focus now. Dig in and see it through. This is the right path and you are doing the right thing. Stability and Growth continuing. A possible speeding up of energy. Others cheering you on in support of your goals."

Crying out of happiness!

I applied for my 2:nd year working holiday visa this morning. And i got it approved a couple of hours ago! I am so fucking happy. Been crying for a while now and I can't stop smiling! Want to get back in the beginning of December, but I also know that it might be smart to stay and work over new years and christmas to get some money.
Help me people, what would you do?
Now all I need is a suitcase that doesn't weigh to much. And a laptop for christmas would be fucking awesome! *wink wink*
Ahhhhhhh! A job and a place to stay over there is something I really need right now. So if you can help me with that, do not hesitate to tell me :)
Boooom shakalack!

Desperate and pathetic?

Pernilla, Me and her uncle drinking at O'connors

It's been a while. I know, that is pretty crappy of me but I have been pretty busy working at O'connors getting my money for the ticket back home. But the thing is... Can I get home again? Looks like getting the second year visa is pretty hard :( And that is making me a bit stressed and of course sad. But I am not giving up! And Clare is there supporting me like always :D You are an angel love! And i so miss you and hope we will see each other soon again :)

So that was the desperate part, now to the pathetic.

Is it pathetic to think of someone all day long, longing for that person and hoping that everything will work out? God knows I would stop thinking about him if I could. And the thing is that it doesn't matter if he knows about it either since we said from the start that we aren't playing games. I don't play games, no need. I am the one I am and hopefully I will find that someone else whom will appreciate it and be a part of the future I am hoping for.

Now I just need to stop thinking that the world stops turning when I am not around and that everything is going to be the way I left it. But what would we be if we knew we were getting what we wanted all the time? I think we live on the hope of it turning out the way we want it to be. So yeah, I am not going to lie, I hope everything is going to turn out the way I want it when I get back but I am not going to be totally devastated if it don't.

I've been surprised before of what my life have been throwing at me. So hopefully another super cute, nice and wonderful guy will make me feel safe and secure again soon...



Me enjoying a warm autumn day, and me getting ready for a night out

Me and the girls taking pictures in the toilet xD

Häraff (Horaffe) Compilation

This is a Horaffe! And A Horaffe is a mixture between a Horse and a Giraffe hence the name.
In Swedish it is called a Häraff, which also makes sense since it is a mixture of the Swedish words for the animals: Häst & Giraff :D
The animal need to have a loooong neck like Giraffes and a smaller body. The two upper ones are made by me and Lisa, and the lover ones are done by Amy and Christy :)
You paint them wherever you want on the victims body when you are stupidly drunk! Enjoy!
I need to find more Horaffe pictures!

Ha ha ha I laugh at this!!!

So. I have "failed" yet another time. But damn it I'm not giving up! The stupid bartender thought I was a drink guru or something even though I told him over and over that I couldn't make drinks but I learn really really fast when I am interested to learn. And I am.. I am starting to feel intellectually drained... Haven't learned much lately and that one night I worked in the bare gave me so much! I learned loads of stuff. Quite useless now it may seem but I think it might come in handy since I like working late nights. Another bar job might be an option to get the money I need to leave and start my life ;)
Ha ha, I'm not giving up my dream of getting back home. For all of you who don't know, Sydney is my home in my heart right now. That is how I feel and I just can't ignore that feeling and be satisfied with what I am given. I am taking what I want and I am never going to be satisfied with the normal living in the freaking hamster wheel!
I must sound a bit pissed of. Well I am... And I think that is exactly what I needed...
Screw you boring "ignorance is bless", screw you to "stick to what you know", And SCREW YOU stupid ass normal life!

No one and nothing takes a dump at me any more....

over and out...